i want you to touch me, speak to me, destroy me.
it's okay to desire. i want you to desire me.

in the time i've been gone i've gotten in and out of depression, had four major surgeries, cried all the time, stopped drinking half as much as i used to, and began smoking too much. i've also got myself tangled into a web of lies and a pit of confusion.
 
i miss kisses on my neck and the whispers in my ear. i miss cuddling in my room watching movies and smiling during kisses. i miss the way you would caress my body and treat me like a delicate paper doll, and grasp onto my hand in public. i'll never forget those glowing bright eyes that lit up when you laughed and watched me as i fell. i'll never forget those eyes who watched me all that time, who gaze at me while we were intertwined, your body softly moving with mine. i miss those moments where you would touch my face and tell me i was beautiful and wipe my tears. i miss touching your chest, resting my head against your strong body and protect me while i sleep. i miss your warm, strong, perfect touch that made me feel like nothing before.
without you, i am empty.
i am nothing.

hi.

I'm lonely.

Shit, I haven't been on this in an eternity.
Hello.

I'll delete this set after awhile because aksjdhfg it sucks.
okay well i'm bored and i want someone to cuddle with.
i hate sunday nights, grr.

Sorry I haven't been on.
My friends and I are going thrift store shopping and then we're cutting and sewing and bla bla bla.
I want new combat boots so fucking bad.
Okay, leave me messages loves.

i want a girl or boy to cuddle with, to smile at and laugh with,
to kiss tenderly and touch softly.
i want someone.

Probably cause I'm cooped up in my house.
My mom hates it when I smoke around her but it's way too cold to enjoy a smoke out there.
So I'm in my room.
Talk to me?